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Self acceptance & my personal story

May 28, 2016

1UntitledHey love!

So recently someone said to me ‘you’ve gained so much weight in the last 2 years’ And it had me thinking, like i was seriously stressing out. I hate change, and to think that my appearance had gone ‘downhill’ was kinda upsetting. I spent weeks on end crying, binge eating, stressing and feeling like shit.

I used to be a size 8 – 10 and i’m now a size 14 – 16. I can’t begin to explain how that makes me feel. I hate looking in the mirror, i feel so disgusted when i look at pictures, i hate full body pictures because i feel so awful about my appearance. I will be the first to admit that i miss the old me but learning to accept my life as it is now is kinda important. Deep down I know i can’t ever be that person again. I can try my hardest, i can strive to get as close as possible to my past weight but it won’t be identical. I grew killer boobs which ain’t ever gonna shrink but hey, that’s life.

Can i just say, I’m not promoting being over weight in any way. Obviously it will have effects on your physical health but learning to love yourself is so important. I wouldn’t say i’m severely overweight but the amount i’ve gained in the last year especially makes me worry about the future.

But then i had a realisation. Why do i care so much about what other people think. If i want to change then i will. I want to change, it won’t be easy. In fact it’s impossible. I’m on medication that causes weight gain (hence i gained the weight in the first place) But i won’t give up. If i’m not happy with myself then i have to be the one to take action. I know it will take a long time but if i want it i will strive for it.

I guess what i’m trying to say is that yes loosing weight is first and foremost but it won’t happen unless you are in the right mind state and feeling positive in yourself. So before i try my hardest to lose weight i’m going to give myself the confidence i need. Yes i’m not a size 6 but i am me. I’m engaged to a man who loves me for myself, i have some amazing friends who support me through thick and thin and i have the capability to change so hell, that’s what i’m gonna do.

My check list is as following:

  • Buy a sports bra, damn i need one to keep those puppies in line.
  • Start small and work my way up. Maybe i will do a 1/2 a mile run this week and a mile next week and so on.
  • Yes i’m gonna have slip ups, i accept that but i’m gonna come back from that with more will power then ever.
  • I’m going to go swimming once a week, walk on the beach and stop using the god damn elevator. There’s stairs and i have legs. Put the two together!
  • Cut down on the takeaway, iceΒ cream and chocolate!

 

I really hope my journey takes me to where i want to be, i won’t give up as easily as i have in the past, i can’t. I’m in the right mindset now and i realise that it’s all well and good crying about it but if i want to change then i have to take action for yourself, otherwise you’ll stay the exact same. I hope my sister reads this and is proud, i learnt a lot of how to deal with my problems from her.

This post was kinda personal, and not like i usually post. But i just wanted to share my story of how i’ve changed, and how i need to take control. I hope this post has given a little motivation, even if it’s only a little then it was worth it.

Never give up, life’s a journey and theres gonna be ups and there will be downs too. Just keep going and never lose sight of the destination.

Love A x


 

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  • Reply Misstery blog May 28, 2016 at 3:39 pm

    This is beautiful ❀

    • Reply Littlebeautyblogxo May 28, 2016 at 3:39 pm

      Thank you so much honey! xo

      • Reply Misstery blog May 28, 2016 at 4:23 pm

        That’s fine lovely, it has such a great message. You are a truly fabulous person ❀

  • Reply Healthy_Glow May 28, 2016 at 3:49 pm

    You are brave and strong! Life indeed is full of ups and downs. Keep going!

  • Reply Azra May 28, 2016 at 3:55 pm

    Great post. I hope you’ll achive your goals, actually I’m sure you’ll. Make it happen’ girl. πŸ™‚

  • Reply JulietteNichols May 28, 2016 at 5:15 pm

    Beautiful. You and this post πŸ™‚

  • Reply braidedlulu May 28, 2016 at 5:29 pm

    Great post! You are beautiful and I know you will reach your goal!

  • Reply Shopaholicsblog May 28, 2016 at 5:47 pm

    You are so beautiful ! ✨just ignore those comments haters gonna hate πŸ˜“

  • Reply industriousgirl May 28, 2016 at 7:39 pm

    Thank you for sharing this <3 x

  • Reply Abbie In Wonderland May 28, 2016 at 8:49 pm

    Can I just say, you look beautiful now as a size 14-16. I used to be an 8-10 and I’ve gained a stone and a half and I’m now a size 12 and I’m actually much happier with my weight and feel more womanly. You also have a beautiful face ✨ xxx

    • Reply Littlebeautyblogxo May 30, 2016 at 5:20 pm

      I’m so glad you feel happy with yourself, you’re gorgeous! Thank you so much lovely! xxx

  • Reply vothikhanhhoa May 28, 2016 at 8:59 pm

    You’re pretty just the way you are <3

  • Reply Jade Millard May 28, 2016 at 9:29 pm

    You should be so proud of yourself for having the courage to post this! I have every faith in you that you will be able to achieve your goals, but believe me, you are beautiful the way you are girlll! Keep on ploughing through and don’t ever give up. You deserve to be happy and the people around you love you for you. So, try to love yourself too πŸ™‚

    Lots of love and best wishes,

    Jade xx | simplyjadey.blogspot.co.uk

    • Reply Littlebeautyblogxo May 30, 2016 at 5:19 pm

      Thank you so so much lovely! Means a great deal to read this! xx

  • Reply xoxokristonian May 28, 2016 at 11:09 pm

    This is absolutely beautiful post. As are you! πŸ™‚

  • Reply tatalandblogs May 28, 2016 at 11:33 pm

    I really do love that you’re spreading this positive negge onto others. All the best x

  • Reply fun fils days May 29, 2016 at 6:08 am

    I feel exactly the same !! Good luck and most importantly whatever you do , do it for you – stuff everyone else xx

  • Reply Traci-Ann May 29, 2016 at 11:11 am

    You are beautiful inside and out.xxx

  • Reply ilovebeautyboxes May 29, 2016 at 8:28 pm

    Ahhh what a lovely read, I can relate so much to this, I’m sorry you are feeling so rubbish, so its so refreshing to read about someone else who feels the same and knows the struggle. Before having children I Was a small 14, and pretty happy with that, I’m now a lumpy 18 and hate what I see in the mirror πŸ™ I’m trying to make changes but its soooo hard. Good luck with your journey xxxxx

    • Reply Littlebeautyblogxo May 30, 2016 at 5:17 pm

      Ahhhh honey, firstly thank you so much for reading, secondly loving yourself is important, the rest will be a breeze after you’ve done so! It’s a long but totally worth it journey! xxxxx

  • Reply Life of a Sassy Chick May 29, 2016 at 9:14 pm

    Beautiful, I can truly relate where you’re coming from. I myself have gained some pounds, and it sucks. You can never give up. You are a beautiful young lady with an amazing soul…loving self first is the key, cause when you do self acceptance comes naturallyβ˜ΊπŸ’―β€πŸŒΉπŸŒΉ

  • Reply Seldane May 30, 2016 at 10:42 pm

    I think you’re beautiful the way you are!! I went through the same thing as you a few years ago where I became really thin but it didn’t make me happy! Now I’m a few stone heavier and I couldn’t be happier I still try and be healthy but at the same time I don’t deprive myself if anything :). Ignore negative comments it’s jealousy! Xx

    • Reply Littlebeautyblogxo June 1, 2016 at 3:31 pm

      Thank you lovely, i love this! So glad you’re happy! I will! xx

  • Reply Alex May 30, 2016 at 11:42 pm

    Girl I can completely relate to you. I’m looking through these pictures of you though, and I see nothing but such a stunning lady. If anybody continues to tell you anything that contradicts that, you don’t need them in your life. This was such a raw and beautiful post. Thank you for sharing your story. You’ve got this girl. ❀️

    • Reply Littlebeautyblogxo June 1, 2016 at 3:30 pm

      Oh my gosh, thank you babe! Your comment has made me smile loads! xox

  • Reply beautybyan June 4, 2016 at 9:56 am

    Girrrl, you are beautiful ! I’m taking medicines that cause gain weight as well and I’ve gained 10 kilo ( not sure how many pounds that is. ) But feeling good about yourself is a huge step in the good direction. Keep up the good work ! xoxo An

    • Reply Littlebeautyblogxo June 4, 2016 at 1:13 pm

      Ah thank you so much lovely! It’s so annoying but theres nothing that i can do about it! Thank you so much for your kind words! xox

  • Reply hazeleyesgreyskies June 4, 2016 at 3:39 pm

    You look gorgeous either way, work it girl!

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